My DO NOT list.

So I’ve run across a bunch of things that I really must not do.

DO NOT read the posts about miscarriages and still born babies on the BBC boards, they are way too depressing and just make me worry more.

DO NOT read the post from the girl who is size 2 and can’t find maternity clothes…awww…poor baby. Deal with it.

DO NOT put a movie in at 8:30 at night without checking that it’s less than 2 hours long. (Although I really enjoyed watching the last Pirates of the Caribbean movie it didn’t finish until 11:30 and I was too tired to be outraged by the ending. That will have to wait until I watch it again.)

DO NOT buy gummy bears, sour gummy bears, gummy worms or gummy peaches. They are too hard to keep away from and I managed to eat almost a whole package of the sour ones tonight.

DO NOT continue to eat weird stuff for breakfast. The hamburger was very tasty but I’m sure it wasn’t the best thing I could have eaten.

DO NOT read the same books over and over again. I really need to get some different books, I love the ones I have but I know the endings of them all.

DO NOT continue to put off the rest of the cleaning projects that I started last week before my in-laws came. The house is much cleaner but I really need to go through the rest of the junk and get rid of the rest of the crap. I wish I could have a yard sale I have so much stuff but I guess freecycle will just be flooded with my stuff for the next couple weeks.

DO NOT obsess on if the baby is going to be a boy or a girl. I will find out on June 16th and I will just worry about that then. At this point I don’t care if it’s boy or girl, but I want to know so I can start buying baby clothes.

DO NOT worry about my friend’s pregnancy, she will get through all these rough spots and she will be fine, as well as her baby will be fine, I just know it. And DO NOT feel bad that I can’t be there to help her out with all of this.

DO NOT worry about gestational diabetes, if it happens it happens and the Dr will help me out with that one. I just hope that my blood sugar test this morning was a fluke.

(I just want to send extra hugs to all who read this that are having a hard time with either their pregnancy or TTC, lots of love.)

Why I sometimes hate being a Californian…

So someone on another one of the boards I hang around put up a post about how proud she is being a Californian because the courts denied the ban against gay marriages. And while I agree that that issue is a major one that will affect the rest of the country I think too many people are not focusing on the issues that will have much more drastic changes to our everyday lives.

This morning mom called me to tell me that there was a huge protest going on in Eureka (our county seat and courthouse) about the budget cuts concerning disabled services. I just looked it up online and the article was amazing. Schooling is taking serious cuts, tuition raises will seriously cut attendance, and state insurance is being cut, drastically.

Another $31 million in savings will come at the expense of two-parent households in the Medi-Cal program. The allowable income will be reduced to 61 percent of the Federal Poverty Level and a rule requiring the primary wage earner to work no more than 100 hours per month will be reinstated.

“We remain concerned about the overall proposed reductions to safety net services for those who cannot advocate for themselves — children, families and the elderly,” said Phillip Crandall, director of Humboldt County Health and Human Services.

Total bull shit. This means that sis may lose her medical insurance because she is disabled and “taking up too many resources” and that people will only be able to get state insurance if they work way less than full time. I can’t believe it. This also means I may lose my job of taking care of sis and she will have to stay home by herself while I work elsewhere because we can’t live with just a single income…grr! There is a good reason why my job is “home health care provider” and what I do is called “protective supervision”.

This also means that the cut in disabled services will put millions of disabled Californians on the street because they no longer have a safe place to live and be cared for and helped with their daily lives. And since there are no more state mental hospitals where are they to go? This is a huge hit that impacts my life more than most people. Sis will continue to live with us no matter what but what about the people who don’t have a family member who is willing to do this for them? What happens to them?

The most embarrassing thing is that Arnold is the one running this state. So many draw backs and cuts have been approved by him that soon we will all be in deep shit no matter what we do. And the worst thing is that he was mainly elected because he is a movie star. I actually heard tons of people tell me that and it sickened me then and it sickens me even worse now.

I’ve actually been thinking about this a lot lately, and I’ve come up with a really good solution that will never happen but it will make our politicians honester (is that a word?) and make our debt disappear almost over night. Make all political positions non-paying and with no benefits, perks, or advantages. Then the people in those positions will be people who want to do it for good reasons, not because they will be famous or paid more than most people in California.

(if you want to read the whole article here it is from my local paper… http://eurekareporter.com/article/080514-governors-revise-keeps-grizzly-creek-park-open )

Summer? Already?!?

It seems like summer has shown up already. I’m amazed!

Let me explain a little bit…

I used to live in Modesto, California (yeah, it’s the home of Chandra Levy and Laci Peterson…) and winter was about 30 degrees and summer was about100+. I used to have heat stroke so often that some days I would just sit in a cold bath all day or sleep in front of the A/C. I hated it and for years I couldn’t wait to move back home where it was cool.

Now I live in way northern California, about 75 miles south of the California-Oregon border. I live right on the coast and those who live on the California coast know that there is something wonderful called the marine layer that coats the coast and keeps us cool and moist. Well, it seems to have melted away. Our normal temp year round is about 60 degrees, averaging 55 in winter and 65 in summer. It’s wonderful knowing that it’s generally cool and that I can wear a sweatshirt and sandals all year round if I want. I love living here, I really do.

The problem is that it is 9 am and it is 80 degrees outside. I’m afraid of wearing shorts, my legs haven’t seen the sun for about 3 years now, so I think I’m going to have to borrow a dress from mom. I’m positive we have broken the heat record already today. Thankfully it’s supposed to be 60 tomorrow so we won’t suffer for long. It still sucks!!!

2 weeks

I was shocked to realize that it’s been 2 weeks since I’ve posted. Not good. And so much has happened. I’ll try to list and explain everything but I’ll probably miss some stuff. Sorry.

So I got my computer fixed. Last December my Dell crashed and instead of fixing it right away I pulled out an old computer that I had in storage to use until I could get it fixed. There was some problems in getting the Dell fixed, the hard drive was completely fried so I needed to buy a new hard drive. With it came the disks to re-install XP and the most important disk was scratched so I almost had it out on the phone with a guy from Dell but I got it and it’s fixed and done with now. I’m so relieved.

The last week or so was consumed with arranging camp dates for sis and us. We’ve got it arranged and finalized but it comes down to 3 camping trips, 2 for sis and 1 for all three of us, within about 6 weeks. It’s going to be hectic but we will get about a week and a half with sis away and for our anniversary and Bishop’s birthday we get to go camping like we love to do.

I had an appt today and got to hear the baby’s heartbeat which was cool and we set up the appt for my u/s to find out the sex, that’s on June 16th so look forward to that one.

My maternity clothes have become about the only thing I can wear any more, the only problem is that I have yet to find a bra or two because there are three places in the area that sell maternity clothes and at only one place did I find bras and they only had one. Needless to say I’m disappointed. Mom was talking about going up to Oregon and looking at Fred Meyer’s for some but I’m not sure if they have maternity clothes or bras there. I guess I’m going to have to call. If they don’t we can go to Wal*Mart in Crescent City for some, I know they have them there.

Well, there is more but I guess it will have to wait till later, it’s getting late and I want to get some reading in before I pass out.