A little cut and paste…

So I posted this to my friends on one website but I thought I would update all of you who aren’t on that site.

5:00 pm – So I just got back from my appt and it went really well. I got to hear his heartbeat and he was moving around so much she couldn’t get it for more than about 3 seconds, but she said it’s a great sign of a healthy baby!

We talked about my glucose test and I showed her the results of my testing over the last week. She said my levels are fine and I don’t have to take the 3-hour test but she would like me to continue testing at home 2-3 times a day. She also had me do a AFP (or something like that) test to see what my blood sugars have been for the last 3 months and it came back fine, at a 5. She gave me a monitor to have (cool!) and all I’ve got to do is ask for more test strips when I need them.

I asked about getting Derek circumcised and she said they don’t do it there but one of the pediatricians in town does it at about 2 weeks after the birth. And weirdly enough it’s my pediatrician from when I was a kid. She said he does a great job and there has never been a problem so I’m glad to get that info and know what to do when the time comes.

We also talked about a doula and she was so supportive that any reluctance I had about getting one is gone. I was telling her that I wanted someone there to be an advocate for me but that wasn’t a family member and she said that was the perfect answer. So I ended up talking to the midwife at the clinic, she also does the doula program and certifies people to be doulas. She said she has a training coming up in September and part of the training is that each new doula has to do three births for free before they get their final certification. So she is going to call me as soon as it’s done to set me up with someone and it’s going to be totally free for me. . I’m so happy!

I think that’s it. I have another appt in 2 weeks and as far as I know it will be just a regular appt.

1:12 am – I’m actually feeling better today mentally than I have in days.  DH and I had our first fight on Saturday.  We’ve been together for almost 8 years now so it is a shock to me and everyone who I tell that fact to.  It was over something stupid and I feel terrible about even bringing it up.  The only thing accomplished by it is that DH will let me know where he is going after work.  Also, he thinks I’ve officially lost my mind.  He even admitted to thinking that.  But for some reason between the good appt and some really good sex (first time since BFP) and for the first time he was talking to Derek, I’m feeling great.  Kinda weird but nice at the same time.  It’s too bad that it’s after 1 in the morning, I could do a whole lot of shit and get a bunch of stuff accomplished.  Damn, why can’t I feel like this during the day?

I want to send a major congrats to Kris… your son is so damn cute!

Also, a congrats to Mindy that she gets to keep Charlie cooking for a little while longer (hopefully).

The last 48 hours

So my observations in the last 48 hours has been this:

My mom is a total flake.  I said it, I said it to her the other day and she seemed to think I was joking but I wasn’t.

I really need to get a new game on my cell phone or on my PDA, the ones I have suck.

DH’s job sucks, not the actual work but the people he works with.

I wish Derek would stop kicking me so hard, sometimes I have to groan because I’m in pain from him.

Even though I spent a good couple hours today cleaning I still managed to miss the point of all that cleaning: the cobwebs that are taking over my kitchen.  Now I’m too tired to do it.

And some updates on some other stuff.  My chiropractor says my pelvis keeps going out of place and that is why I’m in so much pain despite the swimming and the physical therapy.  So she figures that there isn’t much, if anything, that can be done for it.  I get to pass a note over to my physical therapist about this issue and see what he can do about it.

I failed my one hour glucose test (fuck fuck fuck fuck) but I was talking to the nurse about it and she said I can monitor myself (4 times a day, oh fun!) until I see the Dr on Wednesday.  We will talk about the test results and if she insists I will do the three hour test. 

My sleep has gotten even worse.  It’s to the point that people are asking when I slept last.  I have to take tylenol and benadryl every night just to get a good nights sleep though I still get up 3-5 times a night to pee and my pelvis aches so bad I can barely walk to the bathroom.

I’ll update on Wednesday about the appt.

Mom, I’m sleeping!

Every night (for the last couple weeks) I haven’t been able to sleep at night.  As a result the cats stay up with me until I finally fall asleep.  In the morning I wake up to Buddy sleeping above me on the couch like this.  If you pet him he gives you this look like “leave me alone, I’m sleeping mom!”.  He is obviously extremely cute but I have to agree.  I would much rather be sleeping than being awake and facing my daily responsibilities.

Today (in about an hour) I have my physical therapy.  I’m not looking forward to it but thankfully it’s the only appt today.  Tomorrow is the chiropractor.  Next week is two PT appts, a Dr appt, and the nutritionist appt (I think I’m going to cancel that one, she is weird), for sis there is her horse back riding class and her therapy appt and 4-H.  Busy busy busy!  And somehow I’m supposed to fit in swimming in twice.  We didn’t go this week because of other things going on but I really need to start going regularly.

Ug, just thinking about it makes me tired.  I want to go back to sleep…

Today…

It’s raining.  Just a slight drizzle but it’s been almost all day.  It’s actually really nice to have some moisture in the air that isn’t fog, though I wish there was a breeze to go with it.  Instead it’s super still and actually kinda warm.  Makes my idea for a roast chicken not sound as good as it did this morning.  I should get started on it soon.

Instead I have been napping and spacing out on a rather cool website.  I won’t try to explain it, you’ll just have to see for yourself.  http://andyslife.org/games/sand.php

I have been super cranky the last couple days and mostly I have been taking it out on mom.  She and Bishop started a project a year ago to turn one of her spare rooms into an art studio with running water and a small drain (to do some limited photography printing).  Well, the project started out strong and over the last 6 months or so has just stopped.  Now mom is upset because he has so much other stuff going on and she just wants the room back to what it was but needs his help to do it.  I’m upset with her because instead of talking to him she bitches to me that he isn’t doing anything to the damn room.  I must have told her about 20 times the other day that I just don’t care before she got the message. 

Today she calls me and wants to buy Lindsey a riding bra to stop the bouncing while she is doing her classes.  Ok, I had planned on it, but it was going to have to wait another week, but the way she was talking to me about it made it sound like I was neglecting Lin’s needs and made me feel terrible.  So I snapped at her, again.  I hope she understands that most of it is because I can’t seem to sleep at night and I’m so physically and mentally worn out.  I’m not sure I could explain it.  I know that we just got back from camping but I think I need a vacation from everyone.  Just time time to myself to do what I want to do, to eat what I want to eat, to sleep when I want to sleep and not have to worry about anyone but myself for a couple days.  No chores, no bills, no errands or appts, just some me time. 

I know it ain’t going to happen, maybe that’s why I’m feeling like this.  Ok, time to start working on dinner…

Cranky!

So I think Derek is just as cranky as I am right now.  I’m ready to scream at someone but no one is home right now….

I think the main problem is in the last 2 days I haven’t had a decent nap.  I don’t sleep well at night so my afternoon nap is very important.  Yesterday Bishop wouldn’t get off the couch so I ended up snoozing curled up next to him.  Not only did my hips hurt from that I didn’t actually get to sleep because he was playing a fishing game and it was getting annoying.  Today he left to go get something from the store.  After he was gone for 30 minutes I decided to take a nap.  Not 10 minutes after I finally fell asleep he came home.  Grr!  Have I mentioned that I can’t sleep in bed because it is so uncomfortable?  The couch is my only real option and it drives me nuts when he won’t have some pity for me and let me have the couch.  Instead he sits on the couch and makes comments like “have a good nap?” or “feel better now?” when I’m moaning and groaning trying to hoist myself up off the couch while avoiding kicking him.

And Derek has been kicking in two spots all day.  One is behind my belly button.  The other spot is where I pulled my stomach muscle.  Both hurt a lot, both are sore, and I’m really tired of him doing it.  I wish he would turn over and get the other side some.

He likes to do this when I’m relaxed.  Earlier today he was doing it so violently while I was on the computer that I could see my belly moving.  And one of my cats was on my lap and he was being kicked as well.  Kinda funny.  I really wish I could get a video of it to show people but as soon as I tense up to reach for the camera he stops.  He stops when I tell someone about it as well.  Not fair.