Finally!

After 2 weeks of not having any computer access I have my machine back. I’m so happy! Now I just need to catch up…

Broke!

So my computer broke, thank you virus that attacked my humble little computer.  So not cool.  And now I’m going to be broke since I have to take it into the computer shop to get fixed.  Crappy.  Anyone want to make a donation to my fix-the-computer fund?

Cupcakes and sex…

So he wanted cupcakes, little lemon cakes with raspberry frosting.  And he put in his request at 9pm. An hour ago.   So I whipped up a batch in hopes that I could put in my own request after they were done.  Well, he fell asleep on the couch before they were done, though he did wake up briefly to eat 2 cupcakes, but my request was ignored on acount of being too tired….it sucks.

So….

My grandmother wrote me an e-mail the other day that was so mean and manipulating and rude and full of lies that I was appalled. So I talked to the therapist about it and she had some suggestions. So I e-mailed her a long letter letting it all out, all my thoughts on how she talks to me, how she treats me and what she writes me. I got a letter from her this morning apologizing for everything so I guess it’s ok now. We’ll have to see if her attitude towards me has really changed or if she is lying to me just trying to make me happy.

In other news Derek is starting to stand on his own, right now it’s just a couple seconds at a time but it’s a start. He will be 8 months old on Friday and I’m guessing he will be walking by 9 months or a little after.

And today was his first success at drinking from a straw. I was drinking my soda and he kept grabbing for the straw so I let him have the drink so he could suck on the straw. He has never actually got anything through the straw before, though he has tried, and this time he ended up with a mouthful of ice cold coke. It surprised him and he spit it out then coughed. When we got home I pulled out his sippy cup with the straw and put a little juice in it and a lot of water and he is currently sitting happily on the floor drinking from the cup and not spitting it out. I’m so happy! I’m still breastfeeding him but I plan on weaning him at a year to regular milk and today’s achievement will go a long way to making that possible.

Lindsey still is at mom’s house and she is starting up all the bad habits that we worked so hard to rid her of. Like her constantly bingeing, laying in bed all day playing video games, not showering or brushing her teeth. In the 2 months she has been there she has gained almost 15 pounds and smells nasty. And she still hates me. She won’t let mom come over by herself but when they are here she claims that she is bored and wants to leave and of course mom says ok and they go. It’s very frustrating. I’m ready to give up. Everything that we worked so hard for with her has disapeared and no one but Bishop and I seem to give a shit. It sucks.

Terrible…

Yesterday was that is.  Derek has been sleeping through the night, usually from about 9 or 10 to about 6 in the morning.  No waking up unless he has gone to bed early.  Night before last he was up every two hours.  Basically no sleep for me.  Then yesterday he screamed/cried/whined all day.  No naps, didn’t want to eat, he would fall asleep nursing, I would take him up to his crib and he would still be asleep then as soon as I would lay him down he would be screaming.  He ended up going to bed at 8 pm and getting up at 4 this morning.  Still 8 hours but I couldn’t get to sleep till midnight so that wasn’t very good.

This morning has been more of the same.  Crying/screaming/whining all morning, is exhausted (rubbing his eyes, yawning, laying his head down wherever he is) but as soon as I put him in his crib he is screaming.  Like he is doing now.  I hate hearing him do it but since there is a chance that he will fall asleep in his crib, he won’t when he is down stairs, I think I’m going to leave him in his crib for a little while longer.  Maybe the tylenol I gave him 30 minutes ago will kick in and whatever is bothering him will go away.

It’s going to be another long day.

In other news the 4th should be good.  Bishop gets the day off and we are going to BBQ at a friend’s house and maybe go see the town’s firework display.  That one is a we’ll see situation, it depends on how Derek is feeling/acting.  We may end up coming home right after eating.

I really need to do some stuff around here, like clean up the kitchen and my desk.  They both have gotten out of hand but I just don’t have the energy to do it.  At least I put the first load of dishes in the dishwasher, that’s something, right?  I think I’ll try and work on the desk now.